As I started to write today’s answers to the Wife After God Devotional question section. I started to think …Wow God really has been pulling on me a long time.
I started writing a poem back when I was 12 or so. “Life goes on as it must, then we seem to collect some dust.” (I wish I still had that book.) About 15 or so I added. “He calls you on a sudden day, but it was too late you had gone astray.” Wow at 34 I added, ” You hurt him and he hurt you you both found out something new.” In about 2004 I added to the poem again, “Girl meets girl at first there is lust but then there has to be some trust. ” Onward to 2009 I added, “Nobody loves you nobody cares when you jump in front of the train no one will be there.”
@ 119 lbs and wishing I was dead. There was more written to that poem but it was a very dark time in my life and I may one day get the courage to write out the whole thing. But not now. actually probably never. It is something you would hear in a death metal song.
So… as I said answering the first question … Describe a time in your life when someone blessed you that impacted your life…? I could say the undercover agent…(Which I did not write in the journal. It just came to me now.) I started with my brothers John, Gerry, and Delbert who by plane, train, and automobile came to find their baby sister all they knew was I was in Pompano behind a gas station on Dixie highway. They did and long story short took me to NH and tried to get me straight. Back to Pompano I went where I met a crazy Bible thumping drug addict in the woods.
I am glad I don’t have a picture of the old her.
She got married straightened her life out and got pregnant. When she found out I was in jail she prayed for me. Which was answered when, God sent an amazing Woman Jodi to visit me. She thought I was a waste of her time but God sent her back again. In walks a girl from Hialeah, FL.(where is that? ) Her name Idelsis (my angel from God, my best friend, and my sista!!! She was on her fourth DUI. But that is her testimony if she wants to share. LOL She invites me to go stay with her when I get out and not to go back to the streets. At first I didn’t go… BUT GOD made me, I couldn’t take the pressures and called her. She lives with her whole family. They all accepted me in their home and to this day are MY FAMILY.
Ci, Yo soy cubanita. But wait… After being here 3 years and going to a Spanish church(which I did not know at all then) Some weekends traveling up to Pembroke pines where I could to go to my friend Candi’s Church which is English . I Google searched English speaking Christian Churches in Hialeah found North Hialeah Baptist an English Church. I was blessed by a couple who are so in love and watching them hold hands and rub each others back and pray together… I thought Wow as old as they are(I have to type in sorry if you are reading this, but it is what I thought.) they are still doing that…? Really they are above and beyond amazing. Well they called me Jenny as a joke they told me about. And offered me a brand new wedding dress in case I would need it to marry this guy at Church… Are you serious me get married …No not interested.
Well in front of the whole Church at the Fort Myer’s retreat I said yes.
So I am a Wife After God and I go through struggles and I am not perfect. BUT GOD (my two favorite words) He thinks I am and sent His Son Jesus to die for me. I want to be the bride He welcomes with open arms. If He did this for me why not you? You cannot have done any worse. Come as you are.
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” Today is day 11 of this year… we only get 365… we got 354 left. Have you accepted God’s free Gift? (Jesus) Are you prepared if Jesus does come? How will you answer when He ask what you have done with your life? ¸¸.•´¯`•.¸•.¸¸.•☽☆*♥.•*¨`*•Ϡ₡ •.¸¸.•´¯`•.¸¸Ϡ₡ Ϡ₡ ☆¸¸.•*´¯`☆☆´¯`*•.¸¸.♡ • .
God’s grace, peace, light, and love to you always. In Jesus’ service Doreen✞ ✞ ✞
PS. I wont know you were here if you don’t comment. Do you think I told too much? Do you think I should have gone deeper? Would you be my friend?